EVER SINCE
Ever since,
I came into this world
My life had already been arranged
Where I should be,
What I should wear,
Who I should be,
Never question the reasons why I should
Because I have no rights to my life!
Ever since,
I have opened my eyes,
I’d already been marked
To be yours always
To be loved
To be cherished
To be taught not to make any mistakes,
Yet you’ve already created more mistakes while I’m watching!
Ever since,
I said my first word
You’d taught me how to speak
Not to swear
Know when to/not to speak
Know what words to use
Not to use harsh words
Yet you are throwing them harsh words at my face!
Ever since,
I took my first step,
You’d made sure I didn’t fall
“Be determine to walk on my own”
Taking one step at a time
Having the strength to stand up for myself
Knowing it will only be me alone
Since you’ve over-stepped that role!
Ever since,
I started to hear things,
I had believed your ‘I love you!’
Yet that love is selfish!
I’ve listened to you
Do everything you said
Always on the verge of giving
Since you’ve always known only my worst!
In your drunken mood,
Reminding me, I’m your pele
In your hatred mood,
Reminding me, I’m not worth to live
In your fatherly mood,
Reminding me, I’m your first-born
I’m your flesh and blood
Do as you say otherwise be cursed!
You have told me that I can’t hide anything from you
Yet you can’t see the tears I have shed every night
Haven’t you noticed the pain in my eyes?
Haven’t you noticed my struggles?
Trying to make something out of my life
Too late for me I have believed
The past journey has gone with a huge part of me
Ever since....